... the littlest thing can prompt something great!

James 3:4
Behold also the ships, which though they be so great, and are driven of fierce winds, yet are they turned about with a very small helm, whithersoever the governor listeth.




It's weird to think that something so small can sometimes make the most impact on a person, or their lives or whatever project they are working on.


I started this blog around - my "auto saver" says 11:17am. It is not 12:54am... the next day. So, it is incredible when I say this is exactly what happened to Mark Zuckerberg, the founder of Facebook. I just saw the movie The Social Network. Wow, that is an incredible story and such amazingly talented actors. He was dumped by his girlfriend because basically his social skills SUCKED and she decided she couldn't stand being offended by his condescension anymore. That small tilt of the helm of his ship led him to create a website that prompted his ingenuity for the website Facebook that is a billion-dollar institution! He's the youngest billionaire EVER!


So, I've got a secret desire that I've never really told anyone until this quarter. Not because it was embarrassing or anything, but just because I never thought I could do it. Since middle school, I've always wanted to be on a rowing crew. I don't really know exactly why or what prompted this desire, yet it has been instilled in me for so long that I think I am more serious about it now that I attend a school that actually has their own crew! 


I've always been really adamant about researching my choices and being absolutely sure they are the correct choices for me at that particular time. It hasn't always been easy, but I've always made sure to include God and ask him to be incredibly clear with me, because I am seriously stupid when it comes to choices. I want to make sure I'm trusting that what I do is what He wants me to do, not just what I want to do. Well, at the beginning of this quarter, I signed up for the women's crew as being interested and when I did a little race simulation, they said I did really well and that I should consider it seriously.


Well, I wasn't cast in any of the UCI season shows this year, so I don't have shows or rehearsals. And my classes are only Tuesdays and Thursdays, with the exception of working in the costume shop Monday and Wednesday mornings, which I refuse to acknowledge as "classes" since I want to want to be in the shop; I love to sew. That is just this quarter, though, so I could easily fix my schedule to work around crew practice, right? And isn't college supposed to be a time when you are supposed to try out a ton of things that you love? Just to do everything and anything?


I decided to give up on the crew thing because there is so much that i want to do right now. I got into the all-woman's a cappella group on campus, Clair de Lune, and I want to join the campus choir, SING!, and I was going to be one of my house's representatives (but CDL meets at the same time... eek.), I am planning - with some other housemates - the Arroyo Vista Haunted House thing for our house, and therefore a fundraising event, and I'm really hoping it works out. And so much more.


But then, for some reason, I think it's God - I'm hoping it's God - but something is nudging me in the direction of doing crew this Spring! On the bus across campus, some guy was wearing a crew cap. Then my House Advisor commented on my being in really great shape - hmm, okay... haha. THEN, as I'm watching The Social Network, the main guys who are suing Mark Zukerberg are on the Harvard Crew! What else can it be but some big guy up there saying, "Maybe you should do crew. Just for the quarter. You might like it." It's a huge change for me. Physically, I'd have to make sure I'm eating right, DEFINITELY have to make sure I'm taking my meds, working out consistently, all that fun stuff. And I wouldn't be able to be in a show. But I'm already not cast in anything UCI has to offer. There may be Graduate Workshops, but I have next year for that; I probably won't have next year for Crew.


It's somet to think about. A lot to think about. But I will save it for later. For now, Avatar: The Last Airbender Season 1 finale with my next-door-roomies.      :)